Tom Cruise is a JERK!

Nice title right? I have heard so much about Tom and his "issues" with Brook Shields and her post pardom deppression. I just watched a little clip on MSN about and interview he did with one of the anchors from the Today Show and he sounded even more like a jerk than the stuff I have heard so far about him. Who in the world is he? He acts like he is GOD!!! Him on his high horse about how he knows that psychiatry is a bunch of crud and how he has done his research on it. How there is no such thing as a chemical imbalance. I am sorry Mr. Cruise, but I don't recall seeing a M.D. following your name!! I would LOVE to put him in a locked room with Dr. Phil and see what kind of garbage he could spit out of his mouth and then sit back with some popcorn and watch Dr. Phil tear him apart!! I mean... good lord! I believe that everyone is entitled to an opinion, but when you publicly get up on a soap box and preach how right you are and how you look down on those that don't follow your beliefs and your religion... Sounds like he is preaching to me! Oh and what is up with his 12 year old girlfriend (I mean fiancee)?? Does she not see how he has a history of loving them and leaving them??? I think Nicole finally saw the light and since then she has become a fantastic actress! You go girl!! Oh well, maybe the future Mrs. Cruise is looking to fatten up her resume. Dawsons creek was a good show for the teeny boppers, but since then I don't recall seeing her in any great leading lady roles. Oh wait... wasn't she in the umpteenth Batman film?
Ok, enough bashing and on to real life.

Hahahahaha!

Stick a sock in it Tom!!

Missing someone

I haven't been able to post anything for awhile. Been busy with summer. I love being outside when it is so nice out. Although it has been hot lately.

Anyway, back to what I was wanting to type... I am missing my dad so much lately. It has been a hard 5 months. It just feels like it will never get any better. Like the pain will always be raw and I will always have such emotion about it. Loosing someone so close to you really hurts. It tears into the very core of you. At least that is how it is for me. I know what it feels like to lose a loved one (my mom's parents both passed on) and I did hurt, but this is so much more intense than that. My husband made me a photojam that has lots of pictures of my father and set it to music. The song is so hard to listen too, but I feel so much better after watching it a few times and getting the emotion out. Not only do i feel the loss, I also am harboring so much anger. I find myself hating the person that killed him. I know it was an accident and I feel guilty for even thinking like that. I have also wondered why others that have had a chance in thier lifetime to be a good person are still here on this earth and he is not. When he was such a good man. I know... isn't that just horrible? I am at constant battle with myself over this. Who am I to think like that? But, yet I do! I have never harbored so much anger and frustration in my whole life.

I just miss my Dad so much. With Fathers Day coming up, I am so sad. Every holiday has been a struggle since he died. It has only been 5 months. But, in that time, we have had to deal with what would have been my parents 31st wedding anniversary, my mom's birthday, Ashley's birthday (grandpa's girl!), my 30th birthday & Alyssa's birthday. Each one was hard. People say all of the "first" holidays are the hardest. I think that has been true so far.

Anyway, it is late. Until next time...

My ramblings...

I have been MIA! I have been very busy. My oldest child is out of school for the summer (and will be in the first grade in the fall!!!) and so we have been busy w/ all of the "end of the year" things. Not to mention getting used to having all three of the munchkins home with me again. I missed it, but then again... the girls get along so much better when they are apart! Hahahaha!

My husband is looking for a job elsewhere. He has made some really dumb decisions and needs to prove to me that he is trustworthy and loyal to his family. So it is a MUST that he follows through. Otherwise, well... you know what will happen.

Anyway, so far that is all the happenings lately. I hope to post again soon!

Until then... C-YA!